Fear of Imperfection!
Yesterday, I started and stopped three different blog posts about fear....started them because I wanted to talk to you all, really communicate, inspire each other, and I stopped because I was afraid my blog post about fear wouldn't be good enough....oh the irony! I wanted to talk about fear messaging and how it begins with our family and is born out of love and yet it can turn ugly over time. Yesterday, everything I wrote felt wrong, wrong, wrong and so I ended up writing this instead:
"Listen, here's the deal...I am for sure not going to be perfect. I am not going to be brilliant (well sometimes I will, I hope) and yet, I am just going to do it. I am going to show up once a week and be here, present and real. Somedays I will be better than others and I hope that through it all, the good and the bad, I will inspire you to"just do it" too. To work to get better. Try harder. To face your fears. To put the phone down and pick your passion up. To take a class. To throw away what you started and try again. It's ok to do that. It's ok to stop in the middle and wait until tomorrow, to wait and let the inspiration find you ( just be sure you make space for it). That it's ok to approach creation anyway you need to, do anything to start and anything to finish, do ANYTHING but listen to that damn voice that tells you "you can't" or "you shouldn't" or "it's not good enough."
I love you all and hope that whatever it is you are afraid to do, you just start. Throw all the fears in the toilet and flush them down. Life is for living. Today I was afraid to write this post, but here it is. I did it and that is something!"
That was yesterday and all of that is totally true AND today the idea I wanted to share has crystalized for me and so, I want you to think of the one "fear message" you got from someone who loved/s you very much, that plays in your head whenever you want to go for something a little scary. What's the message? Who programmed it for you? Do you believe in it? Do you think the person who programmed it would want it to hold you back from doing something you love? If you want to move on from it; see it. acknowledge it, bless it and burn it! Write it down on a piece of paper and burn it in the sink. As you watch it transform from writing on paper, into flames and smoke, bless it and say, I release you. You might have to do it more than once and that's ok. Just start the process of letting it go.
Today I am going to burn "Fear that if my art doesn't make money, I will die a poor, destitute old woman."
PS. As I wrote my fear down here, it instantly transformed for me. I HAVE been very poor at times in my life, it's not the greatest thing in the world, and yet, if that is my path for old age, at least I will have spent most of my life doing things I love and had passion for!